Thursday, November 29, 2012

Apologies To The Men In My Life

Here are some "I'm sorry"s for the guys that have been in my life or are in my life. We'll start from the beginning.
Colin: I'm sorry for not kissing you back in 1st grade.
Quinn, Brady and Tyler: I'm sorry for telling everyone I was in love with you in 1st grade.
Mr. Stern: I'm sorry I was so sassy to you.
Mr. Olson: I'm sorry I always corrected you.
Mr. Green: I'm sorry for everything I said and didn't say, for the things I did and didn't do. You deserved so much more respect than I gave you. I hope I've made up for it. I'm still sorry.
Josh: I'm sorry for being such a girl, a jealous girl. You were happier without me and I couldn't handle it.
Skylar: I'm sorry for everything that went wrong in our relationship. You were all I could have asked for in a boyfriend. I miss you all the time actually.
Mark: I'm sorry I got clingy. I always supported you and I always will.
Ryan: I'm sorry I started anything with you. We both know it was a mistake.
Noah: You know what I'm sorry for. You were my world, my first love. I hope you get to follow every dream you have. I know you'll go places.
Mitchell: I'm sorry that we're so far apart in age. You are going to make someone so happy one day and I hope I find someone half as wonderful as you to spend the rest of my life with. 
Maxwell: I'm sorry in general.
Ryan C: I'm sorry I wasn't truthful to you. I'm sorry I was uptight.
Maximillian: I'm sorry for that kiss.
Nathan: I'm sorry for trying to ruin your relationships. I'm sorry for being selfish in our friendship. I'm sorry for guilting you into hanging out with me and everything else. I'm sorry for not listening to you, really listening to you. You will never know how much you mean to me. I love you so much and cannot imagine my life without you.

To my brother: I'm sorry I cramped your style when I was a kid. I'm sorry for all the parties I crashed, making you drive me to school, being jealous of your friends, making you see cartoons when all you wanted to see was PG-13 movies. I'm sorry for talking too much in front of your friends, for saying something I wasn't supposed to in front of your friends, for ratting you out to mom and dad. I'm sorry we didn't become friends until after your accident. I'm so thankful and grateful for everything you've taught me in my life. I wouldn't be here if it weren't for you. I love you...but you didn't hear it from me.

To my daddy: I'm sorry I'm not the son you wanted. I'm sorry I can't unload hay, drive the tractor, fix cars, or grind feed like my brother, but I'm trying. I'm sorry I ask you for money all the time and for just taking it. I'm sorry for always complaining, ALWAYS complaining when you ask me for help. I should be happy to spend time with my dad. Daddy, I love you and thank you for everything you've ever done for me.

You all have made such an impact in my life. Just go with it, man.